2009-03-15 - 1:22 a.m.
I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh

Seether- "broken"
feeling- broken haha

Ugh I haven't written in here in over a year. I just got the craving to write tonight. I'm currently writing an essay for my english class on sex and rock music, and suffering from writers block. I just felt like free writing to let all the ideas out of my head for a while. And wow I look back to when I started this thing. I was in the seventh grade, now I'm in college. It seems so surreal.

I guess I should say that I'm good. Well as good as can be expected because I only crave to write here when I'm feeling low.

I felt it again today. The desolation. I think it consumes me at times. It attacks at random moments, and refuses to surrender. I marvel at how far I've come, yet I still feel like my life is at a standstill. How pathetic I feel for succumbing to my self-consciousness. It's so unnatural.

I'm listening to Seether right now. "Broken" is on, and there are times during that song where I just want to be washed away by it. It's just that amazing. "I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away." I just want to slow it down and become a part of it. Just exist within the lyrics. I think there is so much beauty in the broken. "You've gone away, you don't feel me anymore." Lovely.

I'm tired and rambling at best. Nighty night.

*always and forever*